awkwardness

Thank you... for making me feel better every time when I'm down. Thank you for making me feel good about myself when i feel useless. You never fail to make my life feel worthy. That's something i really want to learn from you. Always being so optimistic.

Now, i'm back on track again! Just do what i can now, take a step at a time. (:

Saturday training was not that bad, but looking at the shanghai squad, it looks like we are gonna be screwed. But nevertheless, i will still put in my 101 %. I just hope everyone in the team to put in their 100% and even if we lose it, i will not feel disappointed. (:

Talking about training, this was the first time training with him after the breakup. Haha! I tried to act normally but apparently it fails. I don't know why his presence still affects me. Is like if he don't appear in my life... I won't feel a single thing or perhaps don't even remember how was it like being with him. But once he appears in front of me, all the memories just flashed back. From stranger to friend to lover.. And now it's back to square one. Stranger. How strange it is.. How can two persons that once so in loved to be a total stranger? Not even a hi-bye is exchanged.

Maybe it's just me. But thankfully after a good night sleep, the feeling is gone. I don't know how long i will take to start facing you. With you or without you.. doesn't contribute in my life anymore. I just want to move on... put all the past behind and be happy with what ihave. It's hard on me and i am glad you could do it so perfectly.

Goodnight people. 11 days to shanghai! And i need to catch up with my studies before leaving.