BTO queue number

So anyhow, I applied the queensway, ghim moh edge 4R BTO with tbf. And I was half hearted about getting it as firstly, it's v costly for 4R in Ghim moh compared to sengkang/punggol or any other places. Secondly: there were 661 units and there were like 2200 applicants.

Even though I'm a first timer, I knew chanes wouldn't be high and friends
around me always telling me not that lucky one lah.

And so, turned out my number to be 219/661 which meant I am confirmed with a unit which most likely I can choose of my liking.

I'm suppose to be elated about it. But thinking of the price, I am so scare. I'm afraid to be in debt but I knew the boyfriend would be there with me to go through all these which makes me feel lighten a little.

I don't understand why is sg housing so expensive. People don't earn that much and in order to have a proper roof over our head we need to slog our life working so hard. Sigh! Thinking of which is making me worry what will the future holds.

Anyhow, So back to the location of my BTO, really love it so so much. For the sake of it, I'm gonna forsake all my travelling plans :( guess probably Taiwan next year would be my last vacation. No more Korea. No more Europe? :( no more grad trip?

Is this really what I want? To live tight or comfortable ?

Sigh.