blogging only becomes a space for me to rant or spill my thoughts out freely. I can't kept it within me for long. Okay so this is the reason for this entry today. I'm feeling really lethargic these days despite there ain't any school or physical activity. I don't know what's wrong with me but once in a while I feel bitter about life.
Girls night out that day makes me realize certain things. And one question from Alicia stuck me. What's good bout XXX? I know there are a few "suitors" and they are really nice people but the feelings are just different. Not saying XXX is not good, in fact, he cracked me up every time and i just like the way he is.
But well, everything seemed to be fine in the beginning, and when I thought I am ready to move on, I was rejected. No status ,just the feeling intact in both. I was this |______| close to giving it up but I chose to stay like this. Who knows how long I will be able to stay on. Isit that difficult to find someone you love and vice versa? Being true to love is no longer a IN thing. Haha.
Nowadays, I felt lost, not knowing how to love, to be loved, or feel like someone's gf. I feel like I'm doing many things wrong. I'm not desperate to be in love or what. Just that maybe I still couldn't get out of the 5yrs relationship shadow. I'm trying not to commit the same mistake. And for now, I don't even dare to bother XXX just in case he finds me irritating.
Anyway I think part of me gave up loving someone alrdy. I need to get a grip and find new meaning in life.
I need to be like PHILZA! Hahahaha! Really admire her lots.
That aside, I'm missing this person here

And last but not least, 生日快乐黄燕玲 Teresa wee! :) :)
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