Well well, after trying to absorb whatever I can, I still felt very much a failure. I know people have been very encouraging and to a point I felt really guilty if I were to fail and disappoint them.
This semester makes me wonder if this is really want I'm after for. The kind of feeling that no matter how much effort u put in, at the end of the day you're still gonna fail. It just too damaging to the soul..!
I just can't manage my stress well. And it eating me up alive until this point that I just feel like fuck care the exam and quit school.
My backplan up is to find a new job or go SIM for other courses. I don't know how many percentage is this gonna be happening but for now I know my heart longs to stay in Nus. I can't bear to waste my time n money. And also i don't wish to leave Nus ultimate.
Having this thought already pains me. Can't believe if came true. I'm really lazy right now to open that stupid book. Especially when I'm at work. Arghs!
I wana get it over and be done with!!!!
7more days...
And I truly appreciate everyone who encourages me. Support me.. If I seem hostile in any way recently pls pardon me alright. I'm really drained by school.
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for fuck's sake, forget about ultimate. you are at NUS to study. that's what you should be doing... study hard!
You work hard!! Your luck will be with you all times, sometime you may just need Abit confident... you can pass... The more you have negative thoughts the worst it get... think positive ... Be confident of what you study!!! those subject loves you... You need to love them too :p you hate them... They give you problem... Haha...
Cheers enjoy ur studies!!!
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