September

September, once, was a month of celebrations.

This year is a packed one. I don't know isit the changes in me. I'm not anticipating this Friday. And I felt like hiding myself away. And when the 9th comes, I guess it's gonna be an emo day for me. Oh wells.

I can choose to let go but I chose not to. It's not because I'm 小心眼. I just don't understand if he could do it now why didn't he do it earlier for me? Life is never fair. I will bring this down to grave. I will NEVER forgive neither forget.

People tell me, talked to me.. But it all fails. My heart is filled with hatred for him.. Dear GOD.. I'm a sinner..

Unhappiness aside.. Sunig is approaching so is sing open.. I can hardly find time for myself. Nor all my beloved friends. :( I wana go hong kong..! I wana go Manila. I wana go Aussie.

Mummy is being super sweet these days. I guess must be the heart to heart talk on that particular day. She cooked food every morning so that I can pack to work. Feel so loved. Nevertheless, I also return her my love by buying things like durians for her. Heh heh.

I need to revamp my room. I wan a LCD Tv with audio system. A queen size bed. A study table. Curtains. Drawings on my wall or photo frames filled with all my loves in life.

有时，我觉得生活好累！时不时要把自己做的更好，那身边的人在不会厌倦！但有付出，就有收获吗？有多少人能不要收获？

我不能！但我要的收获有人能给我吗？又或者有谁能谅解我的心结？

我不敢盼望，不敢多想，不敢勇敢的接受挑战。