Denial

I'm so used to having someone with me almost everyday that it becomes a habit.

And i'm trying to shake it that bad habit away. I still feel weird.. But this is what i really need to learn. I'm a grown up now.23 yrs old.I should make my own decision, be responsible for my own actions.

Hahaha. Sometime i look at other girls, i feel so much wanting to be like them. Independent. Strong. I'm just too weak but i know this is just an excuse for not be able to adapt. I need to be more confident, and less reliant on others. I don't know since when i became what i am now.

I still remember how i always believe myself able to do anything that i want or wish during secondary school/poly times. But now, i live in self-rejection and pronouce loser when meet obstacles.I lose that drive in me to fight, to challenge.

And get rid of that expectations from other people.

I NEED,WANT THAT SPIRIT BACK!!!!