quietness

Finally here comes my 3 weeks holiday. I was so excited before the exam ends but after the paper, i don't feel the excitement anymore. Maybe I'm trying to change my lifestyle.

First on the list is to start spending time at home. I realised for the past few years.. I haven't really spend quality time with my kin. And the house is in a mess when nobody bothers. That explains why i decided to start doing the spring cleaning today. I started washing the kitchen basin, it was freaking gross. But i'm glad that it's sparkling now. So proud of myself. I shall keep my finger crossed and hope my mum, my brother, my sister would just take the intiative to keep the cleanliness.

Sometime i wish i came from a better background, with a family (father, mother). A father who takes care of the family, where i don't have to worry about no money for school , for any other things, a father who will protect me against all odds. A mother who shower love and concern through giving encouragement, doing household chores where i don't have to do anything or worry about anything when i'm home. My siblings who can chat with me, heart to heart talk.

But since this is all nothing but dream... i shall work doubly hard to get things right? =) nothing comes easy.

I hope one day.. i will love home rather any other places in this world.

Double header tommorow.. should i watch the semi? But watching soccer alone is :(

I love my two little rascals. Seeing how faith can communicate with me makes me realise how much she grown and in another word how much i aged. The naive-ness, the youth should all be rid off. Time to grow up and stop wanting to be a princess in fairytales because right from the start you're not one. Not someone who is born with a silver spoon. You gotta work hard to earn it! Wake up, mind you!