Try and error? No!!

I think I'm starting to have a liking for girls after that night. It just feels so different.

I know ppl will start to judge me and so. And it's obviously not gg to b forever... But I'm just stating how I felt right now..

The barrier btwn me and guys are huge. I can't help it to think that guys will b so nice when they are aftering you and the next moment when u start to dwell in his love, things changed.

The girls are like gadgets and man loves gadgets. The more difficult it is for them to get hold, the more they treasure you.

Why I tend to feel insecure in relationship might be due to the failure of my parents' marriage. Guys just turned stray when girls come naked at ur door. That's my dad FYI. Haha! I mean how many percentage of guys would really say NO? And with my mum keeps telling me all the negative side of guys.. I start to worry and resulted to being possesive with my previous relationship. Or maybe I just have no confident with how I look.

I'm afraid I will bring this thinking with me for the rest of my life! But I dun wan to be this way. I wan to trust and be in love. Stop doubting.

I know you can let me be your whole world. But how long can this' world' be your world? World is ever changing.. And will u be certain that 10 yrs 20 yrs 30 yrs down the road you will still be there for me? I don't want to try and get hurt again.

You seemed the perfect one nw. But will you continue being perfect in my eyes?

I'm losing faith. And god seemed distant from me...