There are many people out there wanting to question what happen between us. And i thought i should at least explain myself or state my point of view.
I know many people see us as a happy couple which probably will lead to marriage sorta. 4 years ain't that long nor that short. I believe it takes time to really love a person so deeply and wanting to give him the best and make him the happiest man in the world. Seeing him daily is like part of my life, spending time with him makes me the happiest woman.
Even though after 4years, i still look find him attractive and special. His smile will make my heart beat faster. But knowing that i'm the only one who felt this way started to make me worried. I felt insecure, because he doesn't joke with me anymore. He doesn't smile like the way he used to. He doesn't look into my eyes with that glimpse that tells me i'm incomparable to anyone else any longer. I told him umpteen times how i felt. Over and over, argue over the same point. But never once, he made me feel better.
I just need assurance.
I felt as though i'm the one fighting hard to improve on the relationship but in turn, i become the one who's at fault. I became a control freak. and yes, both of us got tired. He got sick of my nonsense. and me, wanting to be loved instead of loving.
For now, i just need to trust and believe the next one who come about make me the happiest woman in the world.
If you really love someone, you would FIGHT hard for her/him. This is why i tried many times and failed.
Did you even try?
2 comments:
If you love someone, you would FIGHT hard for him/her. Since you understand this point, why not FIGHT hard to retain this love.
Sometimes, people know this point but they are just not ready to show their love or sacrifice at this moment.
LOVE is never having to say SORRY.
Not being there doesn't means he/she doesn't love u. Sometimes, u feel that GOD is not there when u need him. But does it means he doesn't love u Connie.
Some people don't even get the chance to love. If u know he's the one. Just grab it. You never know if u will ever, ever meet another person that gives u the same feeling. By the time u realise it in future, it may be too late.
Loving someone doesn't mean controlling that person. Neither does it mean that he will love you back the same amount. And you should not demand that he loves you as much as you love him.
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