Soul searching.

Seriously life has been hectic for me. Too overwhelming that i need a break.

Maybe too many people i deserve this because everything is what i wanted. School, FC, work, Frisbee, friends and love. I admit that i enjoyed utilizing my 24/7 but now it's taking a toll out of me. I don't even have time for a breather.

It's not easy managing and juggling with so many things. It may seemed easy and fine to you but all these needs time,effort,hard work and many sacrifices. It doesn't comes easy, not just a finger snap and it appears right in your eyes. I believe one day it will pays off but i just need to brave through this period of time, adjusting everything. I may neglect some of my friends during time like this but i hope i'm being forgiven, and i will repay everything. (:

I don't understand why some people think that it's easy having what i have. I put in my time and effort. You reap what you sow. So don't fucking get jealous or envy. If you want to, try doing all these by yourself. Life haven't been easy. And i'm on the verge of breaking down. I don't even have time to shop or even go for a movie. I think you're just being selfish not putting yourselves in my shoes. I did what i can and best already and i can proudly say that i have no wrong. So, stop pointing fingers at others. It's time to do some soul searching.

Singapore Opens will be in 7 weeks time and DK just started the very first training. It might be my last opens if i'm gonna study next yr. Therefore, i want to train very hard and play my A game. And i wanna go philiphines in November for MANILA SPIRITS. Bi bi is considering too. Hopefully we can go and treat it as a vacation too. Just happen to watch a scene on TV showing the fireflies in philiphines. If only i can see it in real life. Super nice la. Boy is complaining that i have so many places want to go. HAHA. I shall just leave it and see how it goes. Can't wait for school to ends in August.

JIA YOU CONNIE!!! Friday faster come, and bird park here i come!! (: