I was awakened by the dream that i dreamt at 3am today. It was not exactly a nightmare but was something that is very precious to me was lost. In the dream i was crying bitterly and people around me whom once closed to me just simply ignored me and left me behind.

It was worst than a nightmare! And when i was awake, my heart was aching, my eyes as if had cried as badly as what i did in the dream. I hate dream like that.

I've been paraniod recently and picking on every single thing that he does. I don't understand why i am acting this way. But maybe i couldn't find the good things to compensate the bad things. If i know falling in love deeply with you would bring such pains, i will move away earlier.

I feared that i lose you and did all i can to mend our relationship, but what if there is this day when i couldn't do it anymore? Will you do it for me? I thought giving and taking in a relationship is normal but having to give but no take is such a torture.

I dont want to fall in love with anyone else though there can be many.because you've being embedded in my heart, not eraseable. Can you please sense what i want and feel what i feel? Just a little more is what i asked for.

Call me greedy or unreasonable but i really stating what i feel....