It's strange that when you alone, your mind starts making judgments and draw inferences. This is so unhealthy. Your mind is losing its control and in no time it turn to be hatred. I hate myself heading towards that bad side. I wish myself to be stronger, no, STRONGEST.

Today is such a bad day. I cried for the longest time. My eyes no longer mine. Tears just welled up and kept falling without my permission. I tried my best to keep it back and tried to find my voice back but it fails. This is the time when i know who are the ones that love and care for me. From the moment i stopped tearing and eyes dried, i promised myself never to cry. I know it's tormenting for me. I will be undergoing a changing process. I need to grow up, learn to let go, be contented, be brave!

This blog had accompanied me for 3 yrs and more. When i reminiscing the past, i'm thankful that i have these memories. Be it joyous or sad occasion. I always pen down my feelings to vent my anger. Perhaps, i shouldn't do that anymore. I have to control my feelings. Never to let myself fall down easy anymore. Come on, Connie! I know you can do it. Be back the old you. SMILING ALWAYS.

I WILL COME BACK TOUGHER, i promise!