Just some random thoughts.
Have been thinking what keeps me from maintaining this relationship with baby for so long. People whom known me since way back would know what kind of girl i am. That kind of girl who fall in love easily and then awhile later i'll be with another new guy whom i just get along with. Yes, I'm definitely that kind of bitch, slut and whatever kind of nasty word you can think of. I cant deny that fact cause i once was.. And i do regret in a way. But through all these puppies love, i found my love.
Thinking back, i was the girl that never give in, would not forsake my friends for a guy. I would still date boys out because i find no fault in it. Now, i will think twice and spare a thought for baby. It is a change in me? Or like what many said: "Love is blind". Personally, i think the latter is true but strong as well which can change one personality. I like myself this way and hope to be better.
However, till today, this mindset of mine never change a single bit. Girls fall deeply as time goes by but the guy drifted. In my case, i feel we are still doing good. The only bad thing is baby is bad at words. No sweet good night msgs, no "i miss you" msgs. No romantic dating and no phone chit chatting. My colleague asked me today so what did both of you everyday? It hit me on the spot, cause i really didn't know the answer. I just answered just the 2 of us being together is enough. Deep down my heart, I'm searching for the right answer to satisfy myself. I feel sad, cause i know the real me need loving msgs to brighten up my days. I know once in a while i need warm hugs and kisses. Long relationship really ain't easy. Maybe we are just getting too used to each other that doing the daily routine is enough to keep us going. But, i truly wish baby would start to send me good night messages. No no, not just 2 words GOOD NIGHT. Something more. You may conclude I'm childish or silly but which girl doesn't want that?
I read this girl's blog through a friend of mine. She lost her beloved one for a month already and reading her blog really make me tears. I sensed the strong bonding between the 2 of them. I envy them but it was really heartbreaking to see them living apart. The guy is sweet, every day and night without fail will send her msgs which really mushy yet loving. The girl need to be tough and strong to overcome this. God bless her and his family, hope he would be resting in peace up there.
Maybe it was reading her blog that caused me to be emotionally now. I don't want to live my life to regrets.
Have been thinking what keeps me from maintaining this relationship with baby for so long. People whom known me since way back would know what kind of girl i am. That kind of girl who fall in love easily and then awhile later i'll be with another new guy whom i just get along with. Yes, I'm definitely that kind of bitch, slut and whatever kind of nasty word you can think of. I cant deny that fact cause i once was.. And i do regret in a way. But through all these puppies love, i found my love.
Thinking back, i was the girl that never give in, would not forsake my friends for a guy. I would still date boys out because i find no fault in it. Now, i will think twice and spare a thought for baby. It is a change in me? Or like what many said: "Love is blind". Personally, i think the latter is true but strong as well which can change one personality. I like myself this way and hope to be better.
However, till today, this mindset of mine never change a single bit. Girls fall deeply as time goes by but the guy drifted. In my case, i feel we are still doing good. The only bad thing is baby is bad at words. No sweet good night msgs, no "i miss you" msgs. No romantic dating and no phone chit chatting. My colleague asked me today so what did both of you everyday? It hit me on the spot, cause i really didn't know the answer. I just answered just the 2 of us being together is enough. Deep down my heart, I'm searching for the right answer to satisfy myself. I feel sad, cause i know the real me need loving msgs to brighten up my days. I know once in a while i need warm hugs and kisses. Long relationship really ain't easy. Maybe we are just getting too used to each other that doing the daily routine is enough to keep us going. But, i truly wish baby would start to send me good night messages. No no, not just 2 words GOOD NIGHT. Something more. You may conclude I'm childish or silly but which girl doesn't want that?
I read this girl's blog through a friend of mine. She lost her beloved one for a month already and reading her blog really make me tears. I sensed the strong bonding between the 2 of them. I envy them but it was really heartbreaking to see them living apart. The guy is sweet, every day and night without fail will send her msgs which really mushy yet loving. The girl need to be tough and strong to overcome this. God bless her and his family, hope he would be resting in peace up there.
Maybe it was reading her blog that caused me to be emotionally now. I don't want to live my life to regrets.
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