alrite, we're in the semi final. yea~

hopefully all the competitions will end very soon. so i can haf more time for other thingy.

i've gt a thinking in my mind now. i reali wished im born with a golden spoon. den i wouldnt haf to work so hard for things i wanted. and perhaps, i would haf more time as well. (mayb tt's an excuse for the bad result i got)

hahas. i certainly duno wat's wrong in my nerves. i flunk my common test papers again. hais. i HATE GOHHH. he's a sarcastic lecturer. he run our class down by sayin we're the punching bag. wth.

hais. i in deep thoughts nw. seriously. im gettin older, in less than one yr i go for my attachment den will graduate already. den mayb begin of my career if nt i go abroad to further my studies. i bet my mum has tt idea to. anyway, leaving here might b gud. nt tt im cruel to dump aside everytin, but jus wana a new environment. i reali duno wat i want in my life.

She's giving mi a weird feelings. wat shld i do? sumtime my curiosity made mi wana try it out. i noe i shldnt b.

im getting bad to worse. i needa the movtivation i haf during Os to drive mi thru this difficult program. i need God. i cant feel him anymore. i prayed each day, but got no reply.

im in sucha mess.